Sad Is It?

hurm, as it is going so far
i don't know
it is just so difficult for me
to accept the fact that i am in form 4
it is still very hard for me
to adapt to the situation
where everyone expects the best
for the SPM next year :D
my parents already start planning
about my future after SPM
where i am heading after this
it's good thing isn't it??
your parents really wants the best
but i am afraid to go out there
it seems like it was yesterday :D
that i first set sight on my very first school
it seems like it was yesterday i was taking
the first big exam of my life
it seems like it was yesterday
where i entered secondary school
it is really difficult for me
to accept that i am growing
sooner or later, i will be out there
college or unis, hurmm
what a difficult task for me
i had no confidence at all right now
to face SPM, cause the lessons are so hard :(
while the teachers always wants the best from us
next year, my final year
as a student of secondary school :D
actually, i can't wait for that moment
the moment i left school
and carry on with life
hoping it would get better and better
every step i take will be crucial
every decision i make
could change my future
there is many things
to be worried about after school
you are on your own
no more parents to comfort you
no more school
no more just study at school
relax at home, study every night
without worrying about tomorrow
as after school
no more teachers to really guide you
doing assignment, giving extra guides
you do it all on your own
one wrong step
you could be expelled out of the college
that is worrying a lot
as too my studies
it seems so difficult for me to understand
the lessons that i learnt
i know, that upper form
is very challenging
and need 100% concentration
as success won't came rolling to you
you have to strive for it
however, it is really difficult
as the SPM grades are changed to A+
for the highest, as before
it was A1 where to get it
you only have to score 80
A+ will need a 90
or in my school, 95
how could i even score that much
if i couldn't really understand what i learnt
it is frustrating really
but i hoped, that one day
the success would come to me
being the one who score straight A+
is really good, you could shut everybody's mouth
and easily get scholarship :D
to achieve it
i must double my effort
work harder, and study smarter
more than i did for PMR

i think that is all i want to say
ciao